short post.

skipped yoga today because i was just feeling so tired.

but tomorrow, i have to make down. anyway, almost fainted in the hot room yesterday because i wasn’t feeling so well the previous night. woke up in the wee hours and threw out some mcAss stuff that i had the day before. it will be a long time before i start re-consuming McAss. i have been doing yoga at home anyway since i had the mat since so long ago.

looking and searching for flights to bangkok. initially wanted to just get the one from SIA that cost like SGD350. but i thought like with that amount of money, i can go to bangkok on cheap airline and get a hotel for like 5 days accommodation! so yeah. am waiting for jetstar or airasia to have a promotion. definitely not tiger. once is enough like totally! and the thought that i will be going to and fro in budget terminal just pisses me off. even if it is called budget terminal, there is a limit at how budget it should be! the long walk from the plane drop off point to the custom checkpoint is just so fucking ridiculous that i’d rather pay that massive SGD350 on SIA to bangkok!

last day of work and i am slightly free =)
christmas eve party =) gathering with my old cliques on 30th =) seoul garden day =) daddy’s birthday =) christmas gift exchange =)

i feel so happy suddenly thinking all these.

and i need to lose another 10kg before the next family gathering. i want to shut the gap of some of my fat relatives who just relentlessly keep calling me fat!

pisses me off so badly really. got that laxatives pill. should let met shed about 2kg max because i have not been shitting well.

bye for now.

why? i also don’t know.

sometimes i wonder why the heck did i sign up for a year’s worth of package with a club.

first and foremost, i am one of the last person on earth to ever like owing people money. and here i am SGD1700 in debt to a membership.
yes, i view it as debt because i cannot cancel it off or whatever and it’s a wee bit a pain i must say. i don’t like being tied to the throat.

but today was a great example of why i did so. if i don’t, i won’t ever – really! – have the motivation to stick and do a simple workout! even to alumni gym! and you know why i am slacking with alumni gym? because it only cost SGD16! so i don’t find it a pinch at all. so for once, i am semi grateful for doing so. my dad is forking out the money but when i kept thinking what i can buy with those SGD1700, it put me into a further pain. but i must keep it on the bright side.

and one think i must say that i am good at is being slightly more independent than others. tell me if you ever go to town and walk around aimlessly by yourself. i did – countless of time. tell me if you ever miss your home bus stop on purpose because you feel like you need more time alone. i did – many time. perhaps people will think i am crazy or what, but i find those time alone the most refreshing moment ever where you take the time to just savour in what you could, think back and find solution what you think needed and let go whatever angst you have inside by just power walking and and being alone. people should try it. it might make them less dependable on others and think lesser of suicidal.

oh and yes, i have think of that once before. at that point of time, i just want the world to shut up and shut out of my life. i feel like i have been so ill treated and nothing is fair and that i am better off dead than alive. but a little self time alone makes me think of things more differently when i have calm down.

go try it if you are thinking of suicidal.

dragging my ass to yoga tomorrow morning and the following morning too. i need to get my tummy back in shape in time for tuesday!

then wednesday will be yinyang yoga! love! it’s all about stretching to your maximum ability =) need to stretch my stomach after eating too much the day before

got to sleep now. not confident about ECONS but i think what i studied today suffice enough.
now getting worried over ECAD and OOAD2.

where are my confidence man!

xoxo!

i was told that i MUST attend my neighbour’s wedding because for all i know, they haven’t seen me in a long while… hahahahahaha!!

so because of that, i decided to go for my hot yoga classes on monday and tuesday to lose out some flabs and fats. it is super unnerving. thank god though that my mom told that i need to wear baju kurang to go there. abit, not right la but that clothes is a nice piece of work really. Another reason for me to wear my bling bling heels! i just love it really. just do not have the right occassion to wear it around.

tomorrow i am off to go shopping with my dad for my audio technica headpiece and yoga wear(yes!)
my christmas wish this year was apple itouch. was given that choice or airplane ticket not exceeding SGD400 or a US version Wii moded.
but i think i might change my mind. i could get itouch within 3 weeks. i want something more pricy

you know i am suppose to be studying. but the ECONS book is super thick! im like at chapter 4 and so far i understand everything without the need to highlight any.
chp 5,6,14,15,16 to go. i need to start up on it and tmr i need to go and revise through ECAD for the first half of the day. second half will be back to ECONS.

good day people!

xoxo, love ya bitches! see you sooon!

i need to study and burn fats.

ain’t a smacking good time

this week wasn’t it for me.

although yoga did somehow manage to make me feel slightly better, but due to old ailment, i was down with a real terrible high fever that i ever had to went through that even while being fully clothes, wearing a jacket and 2 layers of blanket still makes me feel so cold. in the end, something burst and i fainted and for all i know, i woke up in the hospital. it’s getting better now but i am a little sick of always being sick over the same thing. if only i could have a normal fever or a normal cold. but no. once i am sick, it usually means hospital admittance for me. my laptop is down and most of the people says ” it’s about time” but well like i say, you will never know the value of something till you are about to lose it and yeah – i feel that way for my laptop now.

my dad mentioned something of reason and it got me real happy! hahahaha.
i shall keep it to myself for now.

anyway, i think the fats that i have lost have started to creep back to me since yesterday i had my kaki fuyong. you can just never resist the temptation of that devilish dish i swear! and furthermore, the no whites has been quite a good way to lose weight really if you find that your weight has been stagnant for awhile now. it does wonders for me for quite a while. will go back to that diet in 2 days time. i need some whites to satisfy my little craving.

starting from next next monday onwards, i will be a hardcore yogi. hahahahaha! i have to make my SGD170 worth it man! if i am feeling happy i might go for a twice a day session. so you could say that i will be in orchard every single day since my centre is located there =) oh and i really do love orchard in the morning hours where shops are still close and there are not much crowd on the streets! definitely refreshing i swear!

if i could get a house in the future, one will be located in the city centre. wait no. it won’t be a house. it will be an apartment. much appropriate and will be on a high rise floor with beautiful city view.

well, a dream for now. but i will definitely invest in one in the future.

cheap!

i tried something new at astons today and also bad choice.

really dislike the potato salad. should have called my friend up and ask what he always order for me. and today, to my surprise – Astons is astonishingly cheap! i swear i never use the word astonishing with cheap together in one breath before!

it has been a really long time since i last pick up the tab. and when i did saw one today, it was really cheap!
no wonder that friend of mine always pick up the tab! but i still want to try my chilli’s.

so aishah want to try? just don’t eat the pork will do! the food is really good i swear!

sleep now. goodnight.

please please please!

oh please let the membership happen!
if it does, i am paying 40bucks cheaper! and if i do, i am going to be happy and so is daddy!

i hope i get it. if i do, i will tell you guys what it is.

off with the whites.

what do you know?

i have to suddenly withdraw from muay thai for the time being. most likely i will start on it in january or february. ballet comments in january too and it cost SO cheap! SGD180 for 10 lessons! yes! i am going to go for it! i especially love the attitude studio really looking all glam and everything!

and i think i need to get off the whites.
meaning i am going to stop eating rice for the time being.
today was day one and i really did not eat any rice. and i should stop talking about it now. cos i am suddenly feeling all hungry again and that totally sucks.

good night. i am going for a walk.

muay thai

what do you know?

i am joining like finally. at first it was a plan between me, rasmi, jialin and diana. then i don’t know the plan went kaput and jialin off to NTU, diana off to don’t know where and rasmi off with her busy school schedule. i know exams are around the corner but i am joining  those once a week and it’s only 40 mins by bus.

i have a lot of hot air to release. i don’t know how similar it will be compared to boxing(done it at kallang) and i think it’s pretty okay kind of training. before the start, 6mins of skipping, 60 push up and 60 sit ups. sounds easy?

i don’t know how i am going to last through the skipping.

i am terrified.

it happened within seconds.

i was using the computer, obvious that my g.ma was out of the room about to go to the toilet.

suddenly, *boom* i turned and saw my g.ma lying on the floor and the first thing i do was to cry. thank god my dad was at home. he and my older sis carried her to her room and i just stayed by her side till then, crying. i am still scared shitless! her head has a balaku and her lips are swollen. i am so scared and i am still crying as i type this.

i need to escort her to the toilet. i am really terrified right now.

shopping list.

as much as i love shopping, i am really fickle thus the lack of clothes in my wardrobe.

clothes that can be recycled and be used in different ways are my true loves. when i look at clothes, the first thing that will run through my mind was – how many ways can i use it? will i use it as many time as that? on what occasion? even with accessories. that is why, for me – it is never the quantity but always the quality of an item because it is going to serve me in a long run. and that is why certain item to me are cheap while it is expensive for others.

to me, a definition of  expensive is an item that won’t serve me for a long time, lacks quality and cannot be used in various other way. cheap is when quality is good, long lasting and i know i will like it for a long time.

that is the reason behind why i think my sport shoe and leather jacket is cheap.
i never really think up of those definition really. i just thought of it today and for most of the clothes and item that i have so far purchased, it seems i have used similar concept subconsciously.

which makes me think – will i really shop that much in china? i really doubt. it seems really that SGD1500 is more than enough. when online shopping, things always comes up to 200++ or 300++ right as i usually mention in my blog. if you think i bought 20++ items with those amount, you are dead wrong. at most, the item came up to 12. seldom more.

so i have been making a list for china and here it is.

1. wigs: long and short. fell in love with it while in bugis so china will have a better option
2. leather jacket: you can never go wrong with this even in dress!
3. feminine flats: about time i need to think i am a female and not half here and there.
4. sneakers: but still i cannot help it but think i am half here and there! definite must!
5. LBD: i need it for formal occasion. as you grow up, you will find this pretty useful.
6. fingerless leather gloves: call me insane but i am still searching for it after 3 months.
7. scarves: no idea why but i want it
8. sunglasses: i have yet to buy rayban and i intend to start wearing soon.
9. big specs: yes. those nerd specs. i’d like to think my face suits it thankyouverymuch.
10. skirts: long short whatever. i should be an acceptable weight by the time i fly there.
11. jeans: i still love jeans.especially when you wear it with nice heels and simple top. total killer!
12. shorts: i see how ah…
13. track pants: nakama yukie in gokusen makes wearing trackpants super nice and comfy. adidas is the brand.
14. adidas jacket: if i can find a steal there, i will buy. otherwise, mustafa will be the hunting ground.
15. plain tops: i know i can get it here. but if price are better there why not as long as they don’t compromise on quality.
16. sweater: i need blue, black, red and khaki green. yellow too maybe.
17. balmain high shoulder blazer lookalike: to die for fullstop!
18. balmain denim high shoulder jacket lookalike: another to die for fullstop.
19. accessories: necklace, studs, belts, bangles and whatever!
20. gladiator rings: i had to post it differently. definitely will hunt down for this!
21. full leggings/opaque stockings: a great options other than jeans!
22. sweat shirt: i just want it. emma makes me want it.

and the list goes. i have like 30 items or so on my list. not that i am getting all. just some that can fit within my budget. hahahahahahahaha. no money? call for more!

anyway goodnight!