limitation

there will always be a level of patience for everything.
but my temper does not seem to last where money concerns.this is little nerving but I really hope there will be one soul to give me a call tomorrow to explain to me regarding the statues absent for my yoga class which i did not confirmed it at all!! i mean i did sign up for it, put on the waiting list but did not notice a miss call from them way after the class is over. but still! i had not confirmed it at all! and if i were to cancel it, it will be considered as late cancellation! i really love pure yoga! really do especially with the facilities and the instructors and all. but man, their booking system sucks big time man!
if this does not improve, i am going to change yoga center once my membership with this company is over. maybe i will then move with Bikram yoga – the authentic one at Raffles city. i don’t mind at all burning 170 bucks per month and even forgo the suspension of account while i am in china.

i am willing to pay as much just as long as the service is up on par with it. so far, bikram has shown me that but the price is too steep for a student like me who is not contributing a single cent for the payment of pureyoga usage from my own wallet. i will start working next year onwards therefore, i don’t mind switching to a more expensive place.

if this incident end on a sour note, i will really anticipate the termination of the contract in December.

*loves*

i got to say, yesterday was the highlight of my life.

for the first time in a long time, i enjoyed my birthday so much! and i kinda prefer the companion compared to the materialistic stuff!

IMAGINE THAT WHEN IT COMES TO ME!!

i had always preferred materialistic stuff but for once yesterday, i love the companion so much! met with aishah and super thanks for the treat man! we walked and walked and i found things that i want HN to buy for me (yeah, i got it already! THANKS HONEY! Thank your dad too!) Then met up with Steffi and some indonesian friends. At first it thought there were going to be 4 of us only but turn out to be 6! (nice number!)

There was Rio, Rio’s brother which I just got to know, Rio’s brother’s friend which I just got to know also, Zico who just came back from aussie and Steffi of course!

Now it came back to me on how much i missed my P6 life where throughout that year, i only mix with indonesians and more of them. only 1 local boy and even that, he is a mixed like me (half indonesian) oh oh, make that 2 local boy since wei zhou is always there too. there was one thai and the rest are indonesians! they were loud, and a little rough but SUPER funny! i really miss the bunch so much!

my indonesian was then quite excellent thanks to them really. yesterday, i felt like i need to brush up on my indonesian again. i was  replying everyone in english because my accent was horrendous since it’s been long since i talked in that language! i need to meet up with the bunch as often as i could.

there is a distinctive difference between my local and foreign friends that i can never point it out on what is it since i don’t really know. maybe the way they carry themselves or i don’t know, the way they treasure their friends.

but let’s say it honestly, i will choose my foreign friends anytime.
if not for them, i won’t be here.

P/S: Thanks for the birthday wishes everyone!! Thank you so much!
P/P/S: Thanks for the great day today

xoxo everyone, love you guys!

worrisome

in a dilemma now. skip if you know nothing about coding and all.

need to decide whether to use PHP or ASP.NET.
honestly, either way i have to relearn both from scratch. from online reading, PHP is better for server-base software and i must admit the codes looks simpler but that is just that. i cannot seem to comprehend how to add  visuals into it when there is no view option and all is just source option -___-”

ASP.NET on the otherhand, i am plainly used to it. although yes, i still don’t get a single crank of their codes after almost a year with Visual Basics. That is how terrible i am with coding honestly. but designing wise, atleast i can see what i am doing to the software outlook.

going to scoot my butt to national library after china’s briefing tomorrow. and then to bras basah to see if i can lay my hands on any gem that may help me decide which of them i should use.
other softwares that i will be using of course include fireworks CS4 for dropdownlist, photoshop CS4 for editing and flash CS4 too. oh and not forgetting MySQL database which i have to make the table from scratch which is agonizing! need to get book on database too it seems although i have to admit on this one – my database is not too scratchy.

now i need to do the list of functional requirements and i am ALMOST complete.
after that to choose a song for animation. i am going to use my sister.

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and that is that.
officially, tomorrow i turn a year older. 2 days ago, it slipped my mind in fact after i got the scope of what my project is all about. trust me, it got me excited and scared at the same time because i am the first person to ever implement such a project and there is no reference or what so ever for me.

it’s a damn FROM SCRATCH job. oh and did i mention that this is a solo project?
therefore, YES i am DAMN DOOM if i don’t do a great job! and plus i have a repeat module to attend!
DWA is a little easier at least but it does not ease the fact that i suck at coding and stupid DWA has tons of it especially in the final exam. i am expecting a B atleast coming from a repeat module.

holiday in china does not seem like a dream anymore. i need to lug books to read on coding while having free break. lug my korean book cos i promise myself to at least revise korean an hour a day minimum.

so tomorrow, after library then what? lunch out and back to hitting the books and of course executing my Understanding animation project. i hope it’s good enough.

and i thought once ECAD is over, i can rest my mind. but not really.
until the day my In House Project (IHP) is over, i will constantly have my mind fretting over crap.

now, to sleep cos there is china briefing tomorrow.

into the ground

i had always wanted to go back to the states since my last trip there.

and i don’t know, this year, i had the dying will to attempt that this year. i seriously want new york, manhattan. was thinking of summer but december is far from that season! if let’s say we do hit it in summer, then there will be miami beach to suntan! Texas too seems nice! i don’t know, everything sounds fabulous!

and the first person to pop in my mind when i think of USA is Jo!
the rest of my friends let’s just say it will either be their parents don’t allow, no money or too scared to venture out of comfort zone.

i hope i can really make it a reality. bandung in june. august? i don’t know maybe hongkong?

next year end of year is a confirm holiday trip! either korea, japan or aussie as a present for my younger sister IF she makes it up to O’level! 2012, the year for me to re enter school as an undergraduate student.

for now, i better keep my head grounded and out of the cloud.

TOR due this week and i have yet to done a single shit ass of a research!

first long post in awhile

i am supposed to be in town right now but the ultimate laziness just had to settle in today.

plus the weather is not really that fantastic. i’d rather use it to fan myself at home.
so, my march holiday ain’t really a holiday but at least i am out of singapore. i could not stand being here every single time break settle in. june holiday has been confirmed with trip to bandung and i swear i cannot wait! we booked an apartment service just right beside this mass street shopping that is somehow similar to cc bangkok!

i am going to go crazy and buy all the PAC makeup they have to offer there! i heard it’s really good and saw some swatches of it and i swear the pigmentation is awesome! going to get some brown eyeshadow that is not too obvious and some blusher that is less pink. i need something of peachy orangy tone to suit my tan skin.

let’s make it official!
on the 27th of february, i am going shopping! yeah for that cheena stuff. i need to get some new makeup – hello bobbi brown!/face shop bronzer and brushes and some blusher. buying food and more food and that ’s about it. clothes, i am just bring what i have cos i heard china has alot to offer and my leather jacket and gloves are waiting for me!!

uniqlo disney section is attracting my attention. i am contemplating whether to get it or otherwise. saw some brushes that i like online which will set me back about SGD40. temptation man…

oh. and the acne product has arrived. i took some pictures on the before but too lazy to post it up here right now. i shall just post it when improvements are seen. used it yesterday night for the first time and i made a huge mistake!

NEVER USE ALL THE BENZOYL PEROXIDE 2.5% AT ONE SHOT!!

especially when your skin is quite sensitive to it. like mine. it itches like hell and i felt like slapping my face hard just to ease the pain.

alright. anyway, going out now to town. i need a breather before hitting on econs once again. left with 1 question that has left me puzzling since the start. good day!

shorty

i told my mom that i don’t want a guy that is of my own race, in ITE and all.

prejudice you must say, but i always prefer man who are way smarter than me. they either irritate the fuck out of me or otherwise.
mom say, i will only get married in my next life. -__-”

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been running in my mind. when do i want to wear tudong again? hahahahaha! shocking right?!

at first i was thinking before i hit 40years old. then recently, i was thinking before i hit 25 years old. and now i was thinking before i hit 21 years old.

it scares the jeepers out of myself at how the age kept getting younger and younger!

anyway, this isn’t suppose to be a long post. so goodnight.

not a good week.

i was hoping that i will get sick but i wasn’t hoping to be this sick!

my nose feel so painful like as though a needle is pierced through. my throat felt ever so dry and my head is having this piercing headache! oh and pure yoga has suspended me -___-” totally. if i want to go for a class, it will be 30mins in advance. like how cool is that.

stupid kannina taxi driver! your fault! my best and worst frenemy!

so i have to reschedule all my yoga timing since some of them are full of waiting list! weekends are a confirm no go which is totally dick. i guess, i have to change it to gyming then. hurrrrrr…. then at night, it depends i guess.

i don’t know. i still haven’t completed GUI yet. the rest i am done. except for ECONS.

this is super nerving!

trial.

okay a few days back, i did mentioned somewhere not in this blog that i just bombed close to SGD80 on my mom’s card.
she still had no idea about it and i hope to remain that way.

what had i purchased? no it’s not clothes dummy. that is for chinaa trip.
i got myself some benzoyl peroxide in gel form at 2.5%, a cleanser that has no comodogenic ingredients and moisturizer.
after like i don’t know – perhaps 5 years of research, i came upon this website last year but had doubt. only till recently did i have the balls to make the purchase but it shrink back at the thought of my mom knowing about it.

in march, i am going to get another brand called MAMA lotion meant for scars and yes, i will definitely make a review on it with pictures – i will photo shopped my face shape, double chin and nose for your info but definitely will not touch on the pimply area.

anyway, i am on massive bidding craze right now!
i hope i win it. then i save super alot of money! good day!

my simple dream.

yeah. i have a simple dream really. don’t really ask for much.

for one, i would love to have my own apartment on a high rise floor. studio apartment will be the best. don’t really like having a spare room other than the storage area. even if a friend is going to jump in and bunk over at my apartment, we can always share a bed. no need for a spare room really. my aim is to get my own pad by the time i hit 35 years old. yes – i am thinking all this with the thoughts that i will stay single till then.

a car. the normality. not the need for fancy one. even a second hand one will do good for me as long as the history is clean.

third. a job paying me a good SGD5000. i don’t think i need anything more than that. aiming to get this amount by the time i hit 30. if i get more, then don’t mind don’t mind but this is the minimum that i would like to get after whipping through shits for like 5 years with a degree and perhaps by then doing a part time masters or something.

a work place that does not have a fucktard boss. my first priority. i have patience but there is a limit as to how far i can go.

a car is not a must if from where i live, i can get to work in 30mins flat. and then on they way, i can get a cup of starbucks to work and all.

business district workplace seems like the pro place to go to right? but i hate crowds. it puts me at a bad mood with all the shoveling. so that will equate to me being in bad mood everyday. which ain’t going to make me into a good worker. i prefer place like novena – SC global building is beautiful! i swear!

i have already a list of company that i am going to apply for once i graduate polytechnic.
i am just going to make my In-House-Project the bomb of it all so that all the credibility that i am a bad student can be eradicate once and for all. but if one still judge me for the past, so be it. it goes to show that you are the ugly retarded imbecile asshole so as to speak. i got to know my supervisor for the in house project and i have no idea who she is really. anyway, i hope i get the project that only requires research and VERY minimal coding. i swear i will just die on the spot! if research, when i put my heart to it, i can do a good job*self praise but i got the confidence about it*

anyway. OOAD2 only left with GUI and Non-functional requirement HAPPY! and also ECONS research. i think i will start on revision once all project ends.
need to pull my gpa up.

i am only aiming for a B.

don’t push me!

i am going to create a new private blog real soon.
i just feel that some people that are not suppose to view my blog are viewing it.

example you my dear sister and am pretty paranoid if a lecturer too is doing the same.
and for your info, i am pissed off with one of the lecturers in my school. but that is for my private blog.

it was my last straw. and i am not going to back down anymore.